noticing - XXV

My existence right now

Just give me a sec, holding top out over fan. 🤤

I feel airflow. It’s great. There is no current difference between in the inside of my office and the street outside in the shade. Bar outside has a gasp of air movement and inside before I got all my fans moving was still. Close. But thats all been happily resolved and I haven’t moved from standing above the fan yet. I don’t think I want to. But there’s no desks that I can easily reinstall and the power sockets don’t quite reach to my desk. There is a shitty oscillating fan downstairs but that’s just a bit sad compared to THE BEAST I have in front of me.

I hear my inbox is being loud again. Not happy about that. Not happy at all.

I see the carpets need cleaning actually. Like a proper deep clean. Should probably call someone about that. Future me problem.

I taste sparkling water. I had half a bottle left over from yesterday. Highland spring, fizz just a hint, a barely felt tickle on the tongue. Bit warm, goes down easy and is better then cold sparkling water at this moment in time. NGL am getting really tired by the taste of water I should probably try like a cordial or something just to make sure I drink it. Is that how people drink so much water all the time every day. They’re using cordial?

I smell nothing actually, my nose is thankfully behaving but everything just smells normal?

I think, tentatively. I’m in a good place. All of works little bothers have sorted themselves out into not my fucking problem anymore. (Delegaaaaation) I managed to sleep last night, which am surprised about considering I was very excited about (see below) getting something launched. Traffic sucked this morning but it was empty upstairs and the air conditioning was kinda working. I just leaned on the seat in front of me guilt free was comfortable. I asserted a boundary yesterday and was met with instant compliance which is always nice. I did pre-emptively explain myself because I felt it was polite given I was inconveniencing someone. That said have just checked and there’s been no actual update where there should be one. So unsure just how compliant that actually was. I’ll keep my eyes on it.

Going to a little bit off on a tangent but if you havn’t noticed from my feed. Am kinda giddy, excited, over the top and yelling at people. I’ve make an effort to try and get more then one chapter of a serial project actually out there. Its silly, awkward, a bit sweaty, totally not a recreation of my teenage years meets the super natural. But it was a lot of fun to write, I may have been cackling during the drafting process and it’s had me in a good mood not only releasing it but seeing other people really get into the absurdity of the piece. Links below, if you’re interested, it’s very British what I think is an interesting take on the genre, leaning into Being Human influences I wish I could get away with writing a young Aiden Turner but well I think that’d be a bit too much on the nose really. >:3